Thanks a million for your beautiful willigness to engage back, my friend! The joy is shared, undoubtedly! 🤗🤗🤗

If I may add something to your very accurate suggestions, I’d say unless we’re harshly pushed by life (or shall I say by the generous Universe) to accelarate the process!

I am a suicide survivor, actually! I was raised in a toxic and dysfunctional family system. I developed a fearful-avoidant insecure attachment style and suffered from an Imposter Syndrome, a Savior pattern and a CPTSD. I was first on my promotion and a workaholic best employee in a continuous desperate attempt to prove my worth given that my intrinsic one was discriminated against for so long. I had 3 burnouts during my corporate career and eventually an existential crisis. I went back to my country of origin from where I was working as a consultant project manager. I was trying to understand what I was going through while I was spot by a malignant narcissist. I was an easy victim. It didn’t take him more than a few months to completely destroy my self-esteem and leave me.in the darkest places. I was ready to execute on my plan to end my miserable and meaningless life before being saved at the last moment through an out-of-body experience during which I saw all the lies but, most importantly the potential, the legacy, the mission that goes beyond my small self! It was the moment of my spirit awakening and I couldn’t be more grateful to the Universe through my life perpetrators without whom I wouldn’t have such an opportunity, in all likelihood! After 3 months of gaining some strength before committing to the extremely painful work of re-writing my program, I armed myself with tons of honesty, openness, bravery and patience to invest in the most rewarding adventure of this physical existence whose paycheck turned to be priceless! The humility (mother of all virtues) to unlearn and learn again drastically helped the quick progress of the process in general, reminding I was doing it for the greater good and not solely for my person was my secret to elevate my bravery every time the pain was seemingly unbearable. Last but not least, it wouldn’t have been possible without consistency given how different the ways of learning of our conscious and subconscious minds are.

My gratitude to the Universe is limitless because all the traumas and nasty discoveries that I made came to me peogressively at the exactly right moment: when I was READY to handle them. I’ve been studiying psychology (to understand and re-write the limiting beliefs about thyself, thus, fixing my former attachment style or the bond I was confusing with love. Destroying the Savior pattern with its different layers was the most challenging part), ancient philosophies (my current life philosophy is in the Nexus of Buddhism, Stoicism and Taoism), neuroplasticity, epigenetics and anything crossing the boundaries between science and the spiritual realm (Gregg Braden is one of my favorite folks in this arena). I’ve been working on my limiting beliefs about the world using our natural constitution: the universal principles, the source, the spirit. Homophobia was the first one I broke and it didn’t even require consistency. It was INSTANT. It seems ro me that the more painful the self-awareness exercise is (because of how seriously we’re committed to the result), the more effective it could be! During the process of reconnecting with my original center and true self to some extent, I developed my 4 seeds of intelligence including the EQ that enlargens the gap between the stimulus and answer allowing us to peogressively move from reactivity to proactivity to interdependency.

Today, apart from my optimistic outlook on life that has always been there, being an empath (now with healthy, strong and unquestionable boundaries), and the virtues that made the whole thing possible, I can confidently say that I’m anything like the former miserable girl I used to be. Scarcity mentality moved to an abundance one, emotional immaturity to maturity (I like to think of it as the balance between being compassionate enough to listen and understand and courageous enough to confront), lack of integrity to walking my talk everyday, in all contexts even at my own expense.

I am today mentally strong enough to face all the hardships, my challenging circumstances or antagonistic people I may deal with daily with a peaceful heart.

The only “negative” feelings I experience today are frustration, anger, disappointment, disgust, sadness, sorrow, and concern. And while the former me was either suppressing and distracting herself or sinking in depression because of NOT KNOWING, who I am today honor them and accept them wholheartedly as a messenger to whom I need to carefully listen before letting go and releasing them healthily!

Anyway, I guess that I could have written an article, instead! 😁🤪🙈 But, again, it was a pleasure engaging with you, my friend! 💙💙💙