How accurate and thoughtful of you, dear Faizan! What you're eloquently describing is, unfortunately, the by-product of the "Scarcity mentality": the complete opposite of the abundance mentality that every true self had before the conditioning took place!

The good news is that it didn’t go anywhere! It’s only numbed under the layers of the distorted subconscious program! All that it takes is to break the denial mechanism and pay of price of reconnecting with the original servant waiting for us to clean the dust!