Oh gosh I so very sorry for having to go through this, my friend... I feel you...🥺🥺🥺 I used to be in that place for almost my whole existence; up to 2 years and a half ago, in all likelihood, which means 2 years following my OBE marking my re-birth. In other words, starting my real work on my rescuer pattern (4 levels for humans) took that much yes! I know how it feels to go the extra mile for someone who never deserved our investment... I learned it the hard way that unconditional love and relationships are completely different concepts, that I can show kindness to strangers as long as it's punctual, but that I will never again invest time and energy in anyone UNLESS they first earned my trust (built over time and consistency)