I feel you more than you can imagine, my friend! I used to be religious my whole life till my re-birth when I was about to kill myself in September 2018! Now, I only believe in a pure love divinity that only intervenes when we have kept our heart open to receive the magic of the oneness! I suffered too much my whole life before realizing the trap of my fucked up subconscious program I never wrote in the first place! Your frustration is legitimate beyond words since I am an advocate for abusers victims--be it from fellow humans or animals! I educate around some dangerous mental pathologies, mainly NPD. Nonetheless, I am a firm believer that suffering, that eventually transforms into pain whenever we clean the conditioning dust, (un)become the filter, and befriend our program to break free and unleash the True Self and potential, is the price to pay for our souls to acquire the mental strength that we need in the real world where I like ti believe our thoughts would manifest instantly! I think of the caring pure love divinity or Universe as the Architects of this Simulation we're living in! One may ask, "how about the folks who didn't make it to the other side and proceeded with ending their life or how about the innocent animals who have a miserable existence because of cruel humans?" I love to believe they were called for other more noble missions to accomplish in their next soul journey! Last but not least, when it comes to the perpetrators or what I call lost souls, I am aware their lack of accountability and never facing consequences despite all the harm they inflict in the world is too frustrating and seemingly unfair! But, when I realized how miserable their inner-world is and that their karma is built-in, that no matter how many soul journeys they'd have, the chances are they'll never find peace, it gave me great satisfaction and acceptance! I even heard from people who were brought back from dearh they'd feel anything they did to their victims! In conclusion, what currently seems unfair and too ugly might be quite the opposite, I suppose! 💙