I do feel you, my friend. That's how my vessel can keep going, it seems to me! Despite all the chaos, at the end of the day, I acknowledge that I did my very best and that all I can do is to let go what I can't control and surrounder... I lost one of my outdoor fur kids 3 days ago. I wrote the last story to celebrate her short life and start my healing journey...

What is pretty amazing about going through the most painful of all griefs (the Radical Acceptance one following a dark secret discovery) along with reconnecting with my original center making my inner peace stable amid the most chaotic circumstances is that I got so familiar with the different stages and so comfortable with honoring all my legitimate emotions that I somehow swing between deep pain and the joy of still feeling her love!

I like to think my baby was called for better missions! Nothing would ever legitimize murdering her cruelly (and I felt undescribable anger the first day) but I prefer letting karma do its job... I know in my heart the person will pay the price sooner or later...

Yesterday, when I was driving two kids to the vet, I saw a killed kitten on the road. Naturally, I stopped my car to barry her and grant her a decent death. Despite the river of my tears, I felt grateful I could do for this baby what I wasn't given the chance to do for Dora...💙