How accurate, my dear Diana! I didn't have the privilege to experience such a state of mind in 35 years! I need to admit that my "savior" pattern didn't make things any easier! I discovered its existence during last August (my birth month), and I was amazed and beyond grateful!

The Universe has been so compassionate with me! I was not sure what made me commit to the transformation and re-writing my f*cked up subconscious program without digging and looking for what created my limiting beliefs in the first place, until some time ago!

The former fragile me wouldn't have been ready to manage her dysfunctional family system reality, forgive and avoid feeling shame and guilt, should she have figured it out immediately post the re-birth & the 3-month first healing phase to gain some strength preceding the real work on the subconscious program!

When discovering my residual savior pattern following months of fierce battles in a trial to save the abused victims, I started my grief. It wasn't until having to give up on a toxic friendship (resulting in writing this piece https://medium.com/know-thyself-heal-thyself/did-you-ask-yourself-why-some-friends-are-like-magnets-2839d0993c2) that I concluded my grief was still mixed with "hope" and that my acceptance was not fully authentic...

As ironic as it may sound, I am grateful to that friend since she triggered the "radical acceptance", and with it the harshest grief (highest levels of sadness and disgust). At the same time, it contributed to finishing the work of destroying my rescuer pattern (not yet done!).

The day that I will completely stop believing in potential and investing so much precious time and energy on individuals who never asked for becoming antifragile will mark the end of the process... Fortunately, all of this made me appreciate the priceless soul friendships (my real family) like yourself even more! 🤗🤍🤗

Here is the piece where I went through discovering my savior pattern, should you be interested:

https://medium.com/illumination/discovered-why-i-was-suffering-from-my-savior-pattern-12aed364bd59