GOODNESS!!! This was a mind-blowingly mesmerizing read! I adore your humility and vulnerability! I never had any kind of addiction to a sustance but, boy, I used to be so addicted to achieving and people-pleasing! At the end of the day, it's all about numbing our feelings of worthlessness and never being good enough; it's just that the coping mechanisms we use are different depending on our distorted center(s) and traumas, it seems to me! 💙