Dear Yana, I do feel you and understand the emotional fatigue you're going through! I am also sorry to realize that the betrayal story is still impacting your mental state, which is completely understandable... All I can say, if I may, is that you have no obligation whatsoever to show up consistently here on Medium! You can take a break or just visit from time to time whenever you feel it! I think that emotionally healthy and genuine people and friends will always understand your boundaries, respect them, and even encourage you to reinforce them! Sending much healing love in your direction! 🤗💙🤗